It was time to solve all my problem of life at once. Now for me the temporary workaround and Quick fixes was NO NO. I wanted and needed to find a sustainable long-term solution. I was desperate to solve – permanently – what was wrong with me. I have decided not to take pharmaceutical drugs again because it's dose was keep of increasing and so the side effects too.

My first call for knowledge was obviously again INTERNET.. I was insanely searching for a solution to shun off my problem forever. My life again derailed when I found out in one of the blog that this problem is not going go ever. I was again depressed and started thinking of suicidal methods.My mental condition started deteriorating. Meanwhile, my parents were convincing me to get married soon and I was in this maze of life to decide what to do. I went frenzy over to find the solution which was my number one priority at that time.

Now, after getting no result from tablets, I decided to leave my own diagnosis aside. I went to other famous doctors also of big hospitals like Fortis, Apollo etc but everyone repeated the same thing, this is a psychological ED not physical and gave me same viagra and cialis tablets which I never bought.  I visited a doctor and after huge hue and cry, I convinced him to prescribe me a test to find out real reason. He suggested PENILE DOPPLER TEST which can be done in 

which I never did.  

Problem still persist but now I have lost my feelings and strength that I will ever be able to overcome from this problem.

I decided to take the things on my own hands and tried some ayurvedic and allopathic medicines which I use during sex. I have shared name of medicines under page "Things I have tried"

I fanatically searched day and night about the solution because it was the question of do or die. I got a link which was claiming to cure any sorts of Man's sexual problems in some months. That was an ayurvedic clinic based out in Uttarpradesh. As I was weak and fragile and was easily manipulative that time. I dived into their ploy and ordered medicine through courier.  That claimed that it is weakness of penile nerves and he has already couriered medicines and massage oil. But as I expected, it never worked. If problem is internal, these superficial medicines won't work. I was again hopeless, pathless and demotivated. Those were the darkest period of my life.I felt like committing suicide.

I became lunatic and was insanely searching for a little hope. Once again I visited several doctors of my city and cried in front of them but no one was ready to accept that I have the problem.At this time my erection was very weak and even when I was masturbating, It remains flaccid.I felt like my penis has lost sense. I was even reluctant to masturbate. No sex, No hope nothing.   

I started making changes to my daily life routine. I changed my habits. One by one.I improved my sleeping time and I tried to sleep more. I made a very conscious effort not to get stressed in stressful situations and relax more. I changed my eating habits. I experimented with a plethora of herbal remedies and other sexual health supplements, I tried excecises like swimming, running, gym.  I even tried penis exercises such as jelquing and Kegel exercises. I even massaged my testicles. however nothing worked out.

Then I decided not to shy away and find out the underlying reason of ED by PENILE DOPPLER TEST. I gathered some guts and took the doctor's prescription and booked an appointment. I was feeling little melancholy . (I will explain about this test in detail on my other page). I was expecting that this test will figure out some problem in my penis like "Venous leakage" but nothing revealed. I burst out of in anger and pain. Nothing was working and I accepted that I will be a loner all my life. I wished somehow to die.